Compassion+Trust=Love

As I recover and my head cools down, I walk more than a mile in their shoes, like my elder sister/caretaker Joan who is a vegetarian (I am a carnivore so can eat anything.).
    I see that I should trust 3 different women when I need to do #2. Joan is my main caretaker and Alice takes care of her husband of almost 25 years, me, and then there's a friend of Alice's.  I also allowed 2 men "down there." But mainly those 3 women.  2 of them do
most of the work. Thus, my advice to you is to walk a mile in someone else's
shoes. Then you'll know what compassion is. God bless you, Matt McCabe

The new normal

For 54 years, I was right hand dominant and now for 1 year and 5 months,  almost 1 1/2 years, I have been left hand dominant but I'm still Emily Dickinson.   
    It is tough never again to teach a class of ESL students. I only teach 1 on 1. Plus eating with the left hand and not
being able to clothe myself or after #2, clean myself up. I shan't dwell there. You know what I mean. I also don't speak like I did and walk slowly, taller than a gorilla and as slow as a sloth.
     I wear glasses now so it's tough for me.  But I am grateful to God for saving my life. He could have let me die on the Long Island Expressway. He has a plan. Mahatma Gandhi said, "The best way to find yourself is to lose yourself in the service of others." I can serve others by
praying for them. God  bless you, Matt McCabe

2 George's "Last Christmas" on 1/6

George Greaney was my supervisor at Hostra University and everyone knows George Michael for his pop group Wham and "Wake me up before you go" , etc.  Both are named George but one, George Michael, took his life in 2016. The one at Hofstra died at 71 in 2018.
I've been thinking about his death, did he have a stroke at 51?   
    I dunno. But he didn't commit suicide. The point is why take your life? I think about Robin Williams (1951-2014) and Anthony Bourdain (1956-2018), Kate Spade (1962-2018) and others. Why did they take their lives? They were talented in food and fashion and in voices and music.. Why? I dunno.All I can do is live. Johnny Mandel once sang, "Suicide is painless, it brings on many changes. And I can take or leave it if I please."
God bless you,  Matt McCabe

PT vs. OT

Every Thursday, I go to the Physical Therapist (PT). There, I bike in place for 15 minutes and do squats with my chair aided by some rubber body holder on the wall only sold in Europe.
    I go to the PT, who will remain nameless to protect her, with my temporary caretaker and I walk there and back. The OT (Occupational Therapist) I will meet on 1/15, a Wednesday because I go to Brooklyn on the 2nd Tuesday each month (1/14 this month). So I won't judge him or her until I go to them. We'll see.
    The local PT is good and I'd recommend her. As you see, I do a lot of exercises plus walking there and home, so it's busy but helpful. God bless you,  Matt McCabe

Routines 12/31

My routines involve waiting  for others and parties, every Monday is the acupuncturist and then Occupational Therapist (OT) on Tuesdays and Fridays in the middle of January 2020.
    Every Wednesday,  starting February 2020, is Brooklyn College and Speech Therapy. On Thursday,  I have PT (Physical Therapy) and PT= my right leg. OT= my right hand.
     Then there's daily meals x 3, so it's a lot. For example,  today is Thursday and my caretaker for early month is in Seattle. So I have another caretaker, names omitted to protect the innocent. Later, I walk to/walk home from the PT.
It's a big deal even though it's local.
    I go with the flow, holidays and people leaving and coming. I try not to cry, knowing at month's end, she'll come back and the other day caretaker isn't here.  At 9:30 am, Food Network has shows on, usually The Pioneer Woman and I don't need to play hopscotch with TV ads blasting me. God  bless you,  Matt McCabe